urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:novemberain Ben pphntm@aol.com Ben 2002-05-14T16:11:44Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:novemberain:1896 2002-05-14T16:11:44Z 2002-05-14T16:11:44Z G'N'R 'You Could Be Mine' it's been a little while since I wrote but I guess i've just been busy with my college life. Here's the update. I am now the proud member of Tau Epsilon Phi fraternity. I pledged for 44 days. I'm doing good in school. I haven't played piano in a year. I haven't done any real singing since I graduated high school. I chain smoke all the time, get stoned all the time, and get drunk all the time. Saturday My girlfriend, becky, of 6 months broke up with me because she was in a car accident where she almost died and realized that i've changed too much and she doesn't think the relationship would work out and it would hurt us alot less to end it now then to end it 2 years down the road when we didn't work out. Then after she broke up with me she treated me to spider-man (Bad ass movie, you should all see it). That's the update. I'm done with classes on friday and I go home for the summer on saturday. Later urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:novemberain:1695 2001-08-18T00:13:59Z 2001-08-18T00:13:59Z "Fear of the Dark" Iron Maiden This is the entry of randomness. I have nothing to really write about so this will be completly random. Today an old friend of mine (Chris Kennedy) got his job back at the creamery. After we talked for a while he decided that I needed to go clubbing with him tomorrow so he can personally hook me up with a girl. What are friends for? Tomorrow i'm throwing a 25th anniversary party for my parents. Yay? I have less than 3 weeks before I have to move into college. I don't think i'm ready at all. Anyway i'm out of random things so bye bye. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:novemberain:1413 2001-08-14T00:26:15Z 2001-08-14T00:26:15Z "patience" By Guns'n'Roses. Cause I need patience to see Jen It's been a while since I wrote in this but i'll still write anyway. Last week I took a 4 day cruise in the bahamas on a boat called the sovereign of the seas. Catchy name huh? Anyway it started to look like it would be a complete drag because mom and dad couldn't stop being ass holes the entire trip. Big surprise there. Anyway the first night I was walking around the ship having a cigarette when I bumped into two people who bummed stoges off of me. I don't deny people those things so I said yes. They suddenly became my best friends. The guy was from just outside of Orlando florida and the girl came from Philedalphia. We ended up walking around the ship for a little while when we got thirsty. We all decided that we wanted virgin daquiries. So we order the virgin d's. The jamaican bartenders have no god damn clue what virgin means. No complaints here. So after my first one I had two more and started feeling tipsy. So I left the 2 people and went to bed. The next night I find myself at the club where we were the night before looking for them. No luck. But I did meet a new girl though. Her name is Jenna Berthiaume. (Pronounced like perfume) We started talking for a little while and I mentioned my sophmore year with Ms. Grana and Mr. Ricci. She gives me a wierd look and asks where i;m from. I tell her i'm from portsmouth and she practically has a heart attack. She told me the names sounded familiar because she had been to two band and chorus festivals with Mr. Ricci there and Ms. Grana there. Turns out she was from North Smithfield RI. That made me very happy. From then to the end of the cruise we became extremely good friends. The things is I find myself missing her. Even though I only knew her for a few days and we are staying in contact by email I think I really do like her. Anyway the rest of the cruise was fabulous. If you want to hear about it ask me in person. Bye Bye urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:novemberain:1066 2001-06-08T16:21:50Z 2001-06-08T16:21:50Z "Dammit" Blink 182 Today is graduation day. There is only 5 hours and 43 minutes left. I'm on countdown. I just fucking slack off all fucking day and end up getting a diploma. On another good point only 10 days till i'm 18 and 11 until my tattoo. Mom's ok with the tattoo and dad's pissed like I really give a fuck. I got my roomate list from Johnson and Wales the other day and my roomates come from Pennsylvania, New Jersey (He's not doing any driving) and Puerto Rico. I HAVE TO FUCKING CALL PUERTO RICO??????? WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH THAT?????? Anyway i'm out of here. Latah fuckahs. See you at Bumpers. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:novemberain:990 2001-05-25T16:18:39Z 2001-05-25T16:18:39Z Guns'n'Roses: Rocket Queen This is my last full day of classes and of fucking course I have to take the god damn sam final. That sucks ass. at least cory's taking it with me. Smackdown was so fucking awesome last night. I only saw the TLC fight but still it just kicked ass. Anyway i have to work tonight, then Jodie and I are going to see the Mummy Returns tomorrow. Hopefully it will rain so i don't have to mow the lawn. Anyway there's not much left to type. Tried to skip econ today but ms. grana wouldn't let me. Might skip spanish but I have to see if i'm exempt from the final. I'm skipping culinary practices on tuesday to go to a double chorus. I have a concert tomorrow so this is pretty cool. Talk 2 u latah mother fuckers. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:novemberain:739 2001-05-24T17:38:43Z 2001-05-24T17:38:43Z Tantric: Breakdown Well right now I just found out that Cassie knows that Jodie and I are going out and according to Jeni she was pissed. So of course now I feel like shit. Why the fuck do all my relationships end up hurting somebody else? It's just not fucking fair. Why can't I just have a girlfriend without somebody else getting pissed, jealous, suicidal or.....or.......pissed? It's just not fucking fair. I like Jodie alot and I was kinda pressured into going out with her but I told Cassie that I couldn't go out with her because there was too much going on and I didn't think I could handle a girlfriend. So basically I feel like I lied to Cassie. But at the time I wasn't. Does that make sense to anybody? I really would like to know. Does something like that make it a lie? I know if cassie reads this and comments she might say yes. If she does then Cassie i'm sorry. I didn't mean for this sort of thing to happen. What ended up happening was that I went to a baseball game with the band and hung with Sabrina, Spero, Jessie, and Jodie all night. Jodie and I kind of hit it off that night even though I had just barely met her that night. On the bus ride home Jodie and Jessie were tickling me the whole way home and Jodie and I started talking. Then Sabrina and Spero started going, "If you guys don't start going out then there's something really fucked up!!!!" So Jodie went out and dumped her boyfriend to go out with me. How can you turn down that sort of thing when they do it the day they fucking meet you. I know that this explanation doesn't make me feel any less shitty. But if Cassie accepts my apology then I will feel so much less shitty. Cassie I would never want to do anything to hurt you but ever since the whole Becky incident I don't feel right about things I do. I've lost some of my better forms of judgement (such as the ones that says what hurts people and what doesn't). One good thing that happened to me today. Erica took the, "No touch" rule off so now we're on hugging terms. We also agree that couples that walk around school holding hands and saying which one says the other one is cuter and which one loves the other one more makes us sick to our stomachs. Another thing that's going on is that Jeni and Cory started going out again and now Jeni is 100% a different person. She doesn't really seem to care for me anymore. Other than to borrow Pocahontas. Like yesterday she hit me on the nose harder than she thought and it ended up hurting until i got home so then I hit her on the arm. Before her and Cory started going out again we would have laughed it off but she took the defensive and starting going, "WHY THE HELL DID YOU HIT ME??" the she told me to fuck off so she's changed alot. Not to sound mean to her because she still is my friend and all. Anyway i've bitched enough. I'm getting the fuck out of here. Latah urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:novemberain:373 2001-05-23T15:26:21Z 2001-05-23T15:26:21Z American Hi-Fi: Flavor of ythe Week THIS IS MY FIRST LIVEJOURNAL ENTRY!!!! Hello everybody. Well a few minutes ago I found out that Jeni and Cory are going out again. Ms. Dumas just told me that I didn't turn in an assignment that I did and if I didn't turn it in which I did then I fail for the fourth quarter. The fucking dyke. Anyway Jodie and I are going great. I might actually get to go to church on sunday and see Cassie and Kyle for once. I don't have to work tomorrow which is a first. Anyway i'll talk to you all later.